homework

there are a lot of school work that i have to finished it but surfing internet distracting me from doing it ! lol XD

its hard to setting my laptop aside esp the urge to watched seobaby's moments with exo ! >,<

*FALLEN ANGEL ALERT*

now im watching my seobaby's cut on Hello Baby

[SNSD Funny] - Maknae Seohyun's Revenge to Her Unnies
ppyong~

15 Ramadhan

pejam celik pejam celik hari ini sudah 15 ramadhan kan ?

betapa cepat masa berlalu dan tahun ini adalah tahun pertama berpuasa tanpa arwah atuk melah dan sudah 3 tahun beraya tanpa nenek...

i misses my nenek and atuk melah...

dan tahun ini merupakan tahun pertama beraya tanpa seorang nenek di sisi

fortunately i still hav another grandma, nek darat (nenek angkat)

but this year seems cant celebrate with her because this year my family will celebrate aidilfitri at semenchu with my mom's families.. usually we celebrate it at muar, before we headed to hometown we'll go to paya ikan to greets my 'keluarga angkat' ...

this year is different than usual and im looking forward :)

need to go ! got tonnes of homework

anyeong !

The Pains

seriously,

im already tired.. penat kerana asyik menangis..

penat kerana selalu diketepikan..

penat kerana orang selalu memandang rendah padaku

aku memang tak sabar nak tamatkan sekolah supaya aku dapat meloloskan diri daripada kepenatan ini

like my previous entry,

aku hanya mampu mendiamkan diri selepas ini..

..dan menanggung lagi segala kepahitan..

ada hikmah disebalik yang berlaku..

Tuhan nak tunjukkan aku sesuatu yang perlu aku tahu,

YANG RAMAI TAK SEMUA SUKA AKU

'what the hell you menganjing ur own classmates on ur tweets? You know you'll meet her like everyday, and why the hell you do that?

im so sorry, i know im a bad person/friend to you

'Stop with ur silly behavior, ppl are getting sick of it, so sick.'


this words made me realised that maybe there are lots of my others friends dislike me..

'So, i'm just gonna leave you alone, bcse you'll never gnna think about others. I got ton of bad stuff about you but, yeah, i'll keep it.'


im already alone since forever... i think im getting used to it. :')
yeah im a heartless person who didnt care about others.
(that words, it seems like other person had talked about my silly behaviour to her)
it proved that I'M REALLY A BAD PERSON

'Bcse this is my last year with my friends, and i dn't talk shit about my friend. I dn't go menganjing around about my clssmates.'


but i didnt go around menganjing bout you..
sigh.. what should i says ? only forgiveness i want from you again..

'We'll see how much you'll suffer if you keep up this behaviour bila dah masuk belajar nnti. Nk mngnjing aku? Kau slh org.'


'and yeah, suka hati lah whether i nk suka sunny ke, hyoyeon and yoona bcse of their show and movies, like kau nk emosi apahal?'


i just didnt like you said that the others members think that they were pretty because it is obviously that all the nine members are pretty..
silly right ? because of this things, my friendship with her ruined and it all my fault and i know..
mianheee~

'dia messed up dgn slh org tau. Dia igt aku ni lembut mcm 's' ke apa.'


mesti 's' selalu mengadu kat dia yang aku so irritated + annoying kan ?
sebab ada satu hari tu ayat dia, aku terasa..

aku minta maaf sesangat kat korang yang sakit hati dengan perangai aku
so it should silence from now on
and the pains, i'll endure it...

im a BAD friend

i kept crying when remember about it..

bad me !

they didnt deserve to be friends with me

i know, they actually didnt like me at all.. 'HATE' is the proper word

but i thik there is a deep meaning about it,

maybe He want to show something for me to realised

i should be more nice toward my friends

my words, my attitude , and everything about me i should have cared for it

after that incident, i be moreeee quietful not so queitful but no more cheerful and brightness side of me

i become more careful when i want to talk

my ways, peoples watched it

i didnt have courage to pranks with them

funny talks change into awkward and silence mode

eventho we're not closest friends but we'll not be as close as before.. maybe.. and im sure of it..

JEONGMAL MIANHE CHINGUS !

mianhe

01.08.2012

tak sangka pula apa yang aku tweet akan jadi benda besar

yah it was my fault too.. sigh

aku ni sungguh jahatkan dengan kawan-kawan aku ?

aku tak sangka tweet aku tu rupanya menganjing.. bagi aku tak tp bagi dia memamg dia terasa..

minta maaf sesangat weiii..